why?

I just don't understand why getting pregnant, staying pregnant, and giving birth can be so difficult, if not impossible, when it is exactly what we are supposed to do....commanded to do. Last week my good friend had a miscarriage that turned pretty scary. She was losing so much blood that she passed out, and had to go to the ER. They weren't able to get it under control, and doctor was talking about having to do an emergency hysterectomy. Fortunately, he was able to get it to stop, and she is home and fine now. It was a very scary and, of course, sad situation. I know a lot of people have miscarriages and other problems, but this just reminded me again that it just doesn't make sense to me. When I think about it too much, I just get mad!

The great thing, though, is I have Elsie to love all day everyday! She's been cracking me up lately. She grabs at everything all the time, and her grip is getting very strong. Her favorites are the phone, the remote, and my hair. Last week we went to McDonald's before our drive home from Moses Lake. She was sitting on my lap, and I attempted to eat my sandwich. She was grabbing at it and the wrapper. I finally had to hold the sandwich in the air in between bites and tilt my head way up. Aaron was on the phone, so he couldn't help me out. It was very humorous. I'm sure I looked like a big dork! It is interesting how she is more interested in what I have than what she is holding or what I give to her. It's so fun to see how she changes and develops. I love it. (Whatever she can reach from her little chair, she grabs. I was quite impressed that she could handle this cereal box. She must love cereal already!)